Women are not objects for men we were brought here to bring life to the world and somewhere along the line we were tossed around from the honor, and the respect we deserve. Something that is rightfully ours to have. No man should disrespect mother earth because that is what every woman is that the essence we carry. Whether some women know it or not we are divine creatures of the day and night. The sun rises and falls on us because of our eternal light. There are men who think we can be bought borrowed misused and abused, these men should not be allowed to live in a world with such wonder and beauty because they are disrespecting the gift they have been given by God himself. These men make real men look bad...So I ask my beautiful divine women to look forward and cast out the fakes...Call them out for the dogs they are the lowest creatures to walk the face of this earth!!! We will not be deprived of our rights and you can't take anything from us we have something bigger behind us then any check you can write. We don't owe you anything and we don't want whatever your offering because its full of poison and pollution.
I recently had to go through something that made we feel less of a woman less as a human being because of a man that thought I was something he could buy to look pretty on his arm... Like the fact he had a son that worked with me and was a married man didn't count for anything...He must not of really known who he was dealing with...As a matter ah fact I know he didn't cuz these acurred in less than a week of me working for this man!! If he knew anything about me those words he said to me that day wouldn't have ever escaped his dry wrinkled mouth. He would have know that i believe a woman doesn't need a man to take care of her that she is the center of all things...She has control of her life and I strive to become better independent..I'm not a hoodrat tryna find a suga daddy to wine and dine me in return for sex.. I want the real deal LOVE, money is nice for security and i'll have it soon enough for myself...But even in all of my anger and disgust of him I have to admit he taught me a lesson and made me a stronger woman.
So this is to that jerked out too old to be thinking of me like that need to go wherever his wife is to have his ass beat son of a gun toast... Thank You
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
What Are You Hiding?
Have you ever felt like your true self hides in the dark. Do you believe we see our selves in different dimensions. One minute we’re calm cool and collected, then scared, angry, and lost…
Who makes up these rules and why do we follow them…is it something unwritten and unspoken that we just know within ourselves. I found it to be the most unsatisfying feeling ever… the questions is how do we break from this cycle ? How do we now when we truly have come full circle…because lets be real we always have that little girl or boy voice inside us saying what we do or don’t deserve. The sad part is most of us don’t believe we deserve to have the best things or shouldn’t allow ourselves to show the world who we really are. Its fairly simply to me that we lie to ourselves ..we are more afraid of our true potential than we know. We will stop at nothing to damage and sabotage any chance we have of succeeding out of fear of winning.
I don't know about you, but im standing up for my little girl voice today and saying you deserve to be loved, you deserve what the world has to offer, you always deserved the best and all those people in the past who said different can kiss yo ass straight to the white meat..!!!
Who makes up these rules and why do we follow them…is it something unwritten and unspoken that we just know within ourselves. I found it to be the most unsatisfying feeling ever… the questions is how do we break from this cycle ? How do we now when we truly have come full circle…because lets be real we always have that little girl or boy voice inside us saying what we do or don’t deserve. The sad part is most of us don’t believe we deserve to have the best things or shouldn’t allow ourselves to show the world who we really are. Its fairly simply to me that we lie to ourselves ..we are more afraid of our true potential than we know. We will stop at nothing to damage and sabotage any chance we have of succeeding out of fear of winning.
I don't know about you, but im standing up for my little girl voice today and saying you deserve to be loved, you deserve what the world has to offer, you always deserved the best and all those people in the past who said different can kiss yo ass straight to the white meat..!!!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Project of a Fool
Tell me, what do fools do?
A fool will have everthing to say about you but the right thing.
A fool will cast away his friends and family for a test drive at the local GM.
A fool will turn around and lose their idenity to fit the mode of the so call alite....
A fool will take all of their money and give it away to somebody who really don't give a shit about their wants and needs...
A fool goes back over and over again to the emotional, physcial and psyhcological abuse...
A fool thinks they can get by with charm alone...
A fool is someone buying rims on a car when they don't have a home...
A fool is someone who thinks they have it bad, but they're really not alone
A fool is some who complains, bitches, and moans to every little thing they don't have or see...
A fool is a liar that thinks what their saying is better than the truth...
A fool is a cheater that thinks they'll never get caught...
A fool is something that many people don't realize they are because everyone has been a fool more than once in their lifetime.
You're a fool and its time that you own up to it....
A fool will have everthing to say about you but the right thing.
A fool will cast away his friends and family for a test drive at the local GM.
A fool will turn around and lose their idenity to fit the mode of the so call alite....
A fool will take all of their money and give it away to somebody who really don't give a shit about their wants and needs...
A fool goes back over and over again to the emotional, physcial and psyhcological abuse...
A fool thinks they can get by with charm alone...
A fool is someone buying rims on a car when they don't have a home...
A fool is someone who thinks they have it bad, but they're really not alone
A fool is some who complains, bitches, and moans to every little thing they don't have or see...
A fool is a liar that thinks what their saying is better than the truth...
A fool is a cheater that thinks they'll never get caught...
A fool is something that many people don't realize they are because everyone has been a fool more than once in their lifetime.
You're a fool and its time that you own up to it....
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Healing I
Healing The Pain:
You can’t change anything overnight. It may take months or even years to cope with the denial and the realization of the heart of your pain. For instance, I know I have a lot of issues with my biological mother and my late father’s side of the family. The first step, I had to take was identify that I had a problem to myself and then to others. Just a month ago when I was having an emotional breakdown. I then proceeded to tell my mother how I really felt about the way she treated me in the past. By expressing that pain to her it opened up a lot of unresolved issues from my past.
So, don’t think its going to stop at the first attempt. There is probably more turmoil underneath the surface down to the roots of your soul. Telling her the pain I felt didn’t stop her from trying to deny the notions I made, but at least she knew and I didn’t have to hold on to the burden of suppressing those feeling any longer. Most of the time the person you are confronting will try to make you believe they didn’t do anything to you or you just need to get over it. Well, that’s exactly what your trying to do, but what you have to remember is this they don’t have control over you. You can only tell yourself how to heal from the pain they inflicted on you. They have no voice!!! No say what so ever on the actions you take by confronting them to heal your wounds. Don’t hold back let them know the full extinct of the damage they've done. You’ve held on too long its time to let it go!!!
You can’t change anything overnight. It may take months or even years to cope with the denial and the realization of the heart of your pain. For instance, I know I have a lot of issues with my biological mother and my late father’s side of the family. The first step, I had to take was identify that I had a problem to myself and then to others. Just a month ago when I was having an emotional breakdown. I then proceeded to tell my mother how I really felt about the way she treated me in the past. By expressing that pain to her it opened up a lot of unresolved issues from my past.
So, don’t think its going to stop at the first attempt. There is probably more turmoil underneath the surface down to the roots of your soul. Telling her the pain I felt didn’t stop her from trying to deny the notions I made, but at least she knew and I didn’t have to hold on to the burden of suppressing those feeling any longer. Most of the time the person you are confronting will try to make you believe they didn’t do anything to you or you just need to get over it. Well, that’s exactly what your trying to do, but what you have to remember is this they don’t have control over you. You can only tell yourself how to heal from the pain they inflicted on you. They have no voice!!! No say what so ever on the actions you take by confronting them to heal your wounds. Don’t hold back let them know the full extinct of the damage they've done. You’ve held on too long its time to let it go!!!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
Scars I
Every time I close my eyes that little girl inside me is telling me I’m not good enough. She told me that everyone I love is going to walk away leaving me heartbroken again. You better protect your heart don’t let anyone in again because their only going to let you down in the end, she said. My emotions are all screwed up from closing it off to the world. I try to forgive them and I’ve tried to forget. Something inside is holding on and I want to let go. I put up the image of the perfect identity for myself, so when I open up my eyes she hides and I begin to feel better, but just because I don’t she her doesn’t mean she’s not there.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
The Saga Begins
The Beginning
I thought the end was near from all the self doubts an enter turmoil, but its not finish with me yet. Now, im owning up to it and realizing I can’t hide from it any longer. I can’t pretend everything is ok when its not. I’m usually the kind of person who will fight fiercely for the people I care about, but I usually sweep things under the rug when I get hurt. I find pleasure in helping others but a good friend told me. I have to take time to heal myself too. So, today I’m starting on that journey releasing what I’ve held in for so long for the world to see. These are: my scars, my fears, my tears, my confessions…G. Confessions
I thought the end was near from all the self doubts an enter turmoil, but its not finish with me yet. Now, im owning up to it and realizing I can’t hide from it any longer. I can’t pretend everything is ok when its not. I’m usually the kind of person who will fight fiercely for the people I care about, but I usually sweep things under the rug when I get hurt. I find pleasure in helping others but a good friend told me. I have to take time to heal myself too. So, today I’m starting on that journey releasing what I’ve held in for so long for the world to see. These are: my scars, my fears, my tears, my confessions…G. Confessions
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Maxwell is and Forever will Be the Truth!!!
I love Maxwell's new song "Pretty Wings", it puts you in a good vibe that a lot of singers fail at doing today. So, i pull my hat off to him and I'm glad he's back out...And im extremely happy he hacked off that fro. He to sexy now LOL!!!
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The Phone Call
Have you ever been in a state that eveyone around is getting on your nerves. You feel like within every second your like a ticking time bomb ready to snap out on anyone that looks at you the wrong way. Well, all of those feeling can be transferred in one phone call. Especially if your hearing from someone who doesn't gave you a break. They call you none freaking stop.
I'm like dude stop harassing me. I know my conversing skills are on point but give me some room to breathe from our last eight phone conversations in one hour. Even family members can make or break you on this. Sometimes in spite of the voice inside telling you to be patient and understanding. You need to wake up and awaken these people that are trying to suck you dry emotionally and spirituality. And how do you do that you? By opening some harsh realities on that person's mind. Tell them you have your own problems you have to deal with and you can't help them if you can't first help yourself. Give them a limit of calls a day and free yourself of guilt and frustration.
I'm like dude stop harassing me. I know my conversing skills are on point but give me some room to breathe from our last eight phone conversations in one hour. Even family members can make or break you on this. Sometimes in spite of the voice inside telling you to be patient and understanding. You need to wake up and awaken these people that are trying to suck you dry emotionally and spirituality. And how do you do that you? By opening some harsh realities on that person's mind. Tell them you have your own problems you have to deal with and you can't help them if you can't first help yourself. Give them a limit of calls a day and free yourself of guilt and frustration.
Lifeless Hearts
I wonder how life will be without love and how will I survive without knowing what true love brings to my soul not only my heart.
I live but what am I living for without love in my heart I feel so empty
and hollow inside.
Will life ever come in does this feeling stay or will it disappear into the air I breathe.
The heart dies a slow death until nothing else remains but
emptiness, lies, and betrayal.
I seek the courage to stand and face my fears
against all odds; will I succeed?
I laugh then cry from the days when I felt life was cruel and bare.
Love is lost gone to a new home of appreciation and affection.
I pray that one day love will come into my life again
Even through all the heartache love is what I miss the most.
I wrote this poem to help those who feel pain in their hearts and confusion in their mind.
Your jounery doesn't end at the start of pain, it moves you above and behind self doubt and pity brought upon others and yourself. So, don't give up you can make it through.
I live but what am I living for without love in my heart I feel so empty
and hollow inside.
Will life ever come in does this feeling stay or will it disappear into the air I breathe.
The heart dies a slow death until nothing else remains but
emptiness, lies, and betrayal.
I seek the courage to stand and face my fears
against all odds; will I succeed?
I laugh then cry from the days when I felt life was cruel and bare.
Love is lost gone to a new home of appreciation and affection.
I pray that one day love will come into my life again
Even through all the heartache love is what I miss the most.
I wrote this poem to help those who feel pain in their hearts and confusion in their mind.
Your jounery doesn't end at the start of pain, it moves you above and behind self doubt and pity brought upon others and yourself. So, don't give up you can make it through.
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