Healing I

Healing The Pain:
You can’t change anything overnight. It may take months or even years to cope with the denial and the realization of the heart of your pain. For instance, I know I have a lot of issues with my biological mother and my late father’s side of the family. The first step, I had to take was identify that I had a problem to myself and then to others. Just a month ago when I was having an emotional breakdown. I then proceeded to tell my mother how I really felt about the way she treated me in the past. By expressing that pain to her it opened up a lot of unresolved issues from my past.
So, don’t think its going to stop at the first attempt. There is probably more turmoil underneath the surface down to the roots of your soul. Telling her the pain I felt didn’t stop her from trying to deny the notions I made, but at least she knew and I didn’t have to hold on to the burden of suppressing those feeling any longer. Most of the time the person you are confronting will try to make you believe they didn’t do anything to you or you just need to get over it. Well, that’s exactly what your trying to do, but what you have to remember is this they don’t have control over you. You can only tell yourself how to heal from the pain they inflicted on you. They have no voice!!! No say what so ever on the actions you take by confronting them to heal your wounds. Don’t hold back let them know the full extinct of the damage they've done. You’ve held on too long its time to let it go!!!

Scars I

Every time I close my eyes that little girl inside me is telling me I’m not good enough. She told me that everyone I love is going to walk away leaving me heartbroken again. You better protect your heart don’t let anyone in again because their only going to let you down in the end, she said. My emotions are all screwed up from closing it off to the world. I try to forgive them and I’ve tried to forget. Something inside is holding on and I want to let go. I put up the image of the perfect identity for myself, so when I open up my eyes she hides and I begin to feel better, but just because I don’t she her doesn’t mean she’s not there.

The Saga Begins

The Beginning


I thought the end was near from all the self doubts an enter turmoil, but its not finish with me yet. Now, im owning up to it and realizing I can’t hide from it any longer. I can’t pretend everything is ok when its not. I’m usually the kind of person who will fight fiercely for the people I care about, but I usually sweep things under the rug when I get hurt. I find pleasure in helping others but a good friend told me. I have to take time to heal myself too. So, today I’m starting on that journey releasing what I’ve held in for so long for the world to see. These are: my scars, my fears, my tears, my confessions…G. Confessions

Maxwell is and Forever will Be the Truth!!!

I love Maxwell's new song "Pretty Wings", it puts you in a good vibe that a lot of singers fail at doing today. So, i pull my hat off to him and I'm glad he's back out...And im extremely happy he hacked off that fro. He to sexy now LOL!!!

The Phone Call

Have you ever been in a state that eveyone around is getting on your nerves. You feel like within every second your like a ticking time bomb ready to snap out on anyone that looks at you the wrong way. Well, all of those feeling can be transferred in one phone call. Especially if your hearing from someone who doesn't gave you a break. They call you none freaking stop.

I'm like dude stop harassing me. I know my conversing skills are on point but give me some room to breathe from our last eight phone conversations in one hour. Even family members can make or break you on this. Sometimes in spite of the voice inside telling you to be patient and understanding. You need to wake up and awaken these people that are trying to suck you dry emotionally and spirituality. And how do you do that you? By opening some harsh realities on that person's mind. Tell them you have your own problems you have to deal with and you can't help them if you can't first help yourself. Give them a limit of calls a day and free yourself of guilt and frustration.

Lifeless Hearts

I wonder how life will be without love and how will I survive without knowing what true love brings to my soul not only my heart.
I live but what am I living for without love in my heart I feel so empty
and hollow inside.
Will life ever come in does this feeling stay or will it disappear into the air I breathe.
The heart dies a slow death until nothing else remains but
emptiness, lies, and betrayal.
I seek the courage to stand and face my fears
against all odds; will I succeed?
I laugh then cry from the days when I felt life was cruel and bare.
Love is lost gone to a new home of appreciation and affection.
I pray that one day love will come into my life again
Even through all the heartache love is what I miss the most.


I wrote this poem to help those who feel pain in their hearts and confusion in their mind.
Your jounery doesn't end at the start of pain, it moves you above and behind self doubt and pity brought upon others and yourself. So, don't give up you can make it through.